hakhakhak.. i want my emak.

Masa keje tadi..huhuh lawak je. Memang lawak la. Aku baik dgn satu mamat nih. Selalu kalu terserempak aku senyum pastu ckp hi je. Tadi aku break lama gak la. Makan roti sambil lepak2 tgk org. Tibe2 mamat ni datang. Borak byk mende gak la. Dari hal dublin, sports, tsunami, bush sampai la ke hal relationship. Dia ni irish la..tak cute pun. Maybe sbb aku tak suka mat saleh. Takde selera la dgn mat saleh.

mamat ni ckp la."i've pretty much always had a gf. It's an important part of my life to me. I like the sharing. I like company"

"erm..so do I, I think, it's just some of us dont have the option" aku replied. Yela..sape xnak bercinta. GAGAGAGAGAG..gatal nye haku.

"i think, i'm pretty easy to please. I dont ask for too much" Mamat tu jawab. Mcm nk cakap dia ni tak memilih la tu.

pastu die tanya lagi " what do you think bout me?"

"I think u re lovely" aku bodek je. Padahal aku menyampah sbb kacau aku nk makan.

"Would u go out with me?" Dia angkat kening dia.

What?? this must be some kind of test.Gile ape mamat nih nk ajak aku date.

OMG, surely he cant think i'm still virgin and will stay with it untill the right time come..maksud aku kawen la.. Aku pun jawab la..aku bz and suka hidup single. Dengan cool nye dia pun jawab "ok, let me know when u re ready" GAGAGAGA..gile aper,,aku nk date ngn mat saleh. Kalau tahu dek bapak aku..leh di pancung kepala aku, worse kalau bapak aku tanak me-wali kan aku bile nikah ti. huhuh..leh jadi ANDARTU aku.

Tapi aku percaya, when there's a bond between two people, it cant be broken. Not by time, or distance or other people. If u profoundly feel something for someone, u always will.

but..buat masa ni aku tanak laa komitmen. x nak suka org dah.

sbb everytime u get a crush on someone, u get a bit of hope, a flash of future ,something to look forward to. Something to live for.

When u get dumped or rejected, that's all taken away. U survived perfectly well before u met that person but when they are removed equation u sense a much greater loss. And that because the loss is greater than the person. U re not just mourning their passing, u re mourning the death of possibility.

GAGAGAGAG...Apersal nih..huhuhu..nk stop la. emak...i miss u..waaaaa..nak emak la. windu kat die. Kalau kat umah..sedih2 camni..leh ajak mak makan cheezel dgn 100plus. tu je ubat aku nk hepi balik.. gagaga..alah..x sedih pun. rindu mak je.